Dear Reflection in the Mirror,

Well here’s to my last letter, for this month at least. Sorry for the bit of a delay but you could say life’s been a tad rough the last couple weeks.  I hope that each letter reaches it’s respective addressees at some point or another and they get to read them. Some entries are shorter than others, while some are very lengthy. Mostly, my emotions spilled over. All of them made me reflect as to what I really am — my dreams, aspirations, etc.

So Dear Star-

When I started this letter project, I didn’t know what was to come with the writings. Some of the letters were a bit hard to write; evoking tears, and feelings I had been suppressing for a bit. Some made me reminisce and laugh about past memories.

This letter is to that reflection in the mirror. Before I use to look at you and start nit-picking at the things I hated. My stomach, my child-bearing hips, my big butt, my thick thighs, my full face, etc – but in the last couple months I can say I’m happy at what I see reflecting back at me. Though I would still consider this body a work in progress, I’m happy the progress I have made thus far. I can’t believe that almost a year and a half ago I was 65 lbs heavier than I am now. My goal is to lose 45-60 lbs this year. I’m going to work diligently as I want to maintain that weight. Thankfully I have a supportive man in my life, who is willing to jump on that bandwagon with me, and eat healthy and work out with me.

Aside from the physical reflection-I would say I see someone unique, special, sensitive and complicated. You are indecisive, and are always cautious of making the right decision or not. I know you have doubts at times about your worth or capabilities, but you need to forget about those all together. You have family, friends and acquaintances who distill on a daily that you are so much more than you give yourself credit for. ACCEPT THE COMPLIMENTS and quit discounting them.

You’re starting to finally learn what it is to love yourself and never let anyone make you feel like you don’t deserve what you want. You are worth and deserve every bit of happiness that crosses you.

You’ve got a lot more living to do -and self discovery, so enjoy the rollercoaster of life chick and just be true to who are !

xo -

“Tears don’t mean your losing, everybody’s bruising, just be true to who you are.” 

 

Dear Dreams,

Dear Dreams,

You are my thoughts, emotions, beauty, and success I strongly STRIVE  to achieve.  I refuse to see you as just dreams. You will be my future. You are my Bachelors degree I received for Graphic Design before the age of 21. You are my amazing positions and careers that I’ve been blessed to learn, grow and network within. You are the places I plan to visit. You are my bucketlist of things that I’m working on crossing off. You are the individuals I get to meet in my life that will impact me. You are the the man, who will come into my life, show me what unconditional love is and be the one who makes me say, “I married my best friend.” You are that moment my dad get’s to walk me down the aisle. You are my family I get to build in my years to come. To me you are my companion in life and will be with me through and through. You are what creates that fire and drive inside and makes me want to be better myself. You are my dreams, but you will be that moment that when I look back to reflect on my life, I can say I made those dreams a reality.

love, Your Ultimate Dreamer

Chapter 2012 : 366 days of resolutions

The last couple years of my life have definitely had their ups and downs. On New Year’s Eve, I decided to make some changes for the better. I want to make everyday truly count by taking some sort of action or initiative (big or small/ selfless or selfish).

Why am I doing this?

1. My objective is to work on my myself actively. I want to give myself challenges that will help me grow and conquer my fears, worries, and life.

2. I want to try new things. I want to get out of the routine.

3. I also want to stop thinking about doing something and actually start doing it.

I got away from writing in my blog, WITH AMBITION , I was once soo super excited to write in daily, and think this will be a great way to contribute to it again. I would love ideas to contribute to the 365 project and maybe you can even do it with me! In co-hoots with every post I want to post a picture as well. As I think a daily picture can show how oneself changes and grows. Really looking forward to accomplishing this 365 day resolutions !

#Chapter2012

Better late than never…

I finally decided to start a blog about my fitness journey. I’m 3 weeks in and though ideally it would have been smart to start from the beginning, it’s better late than never, right? Same thought on weightloss. Everyone seems to think when you get older you just get fat or heavy and that is just not the case. You LET yourself get that way, you can change that at anytime just takes ambition, dedication and persistence. Better late than never!

I was told it takes 21 days to make a habit. Well, I’m 25 days in and of those 25 days I’ve only given myself 4 days off from working out. Looks like I created a habit! I’d like to think I’m made a new obsession, but healthy one at that. I’m really excited where this going and the goals I’ve set for myself.

Stats:

25 days in| 13 lbs in weight-loss |  1 pant size down

I’m weighing myself with the Weight Watchers scale |Monitors body fat, body water, bone mass and bmi

Now if I can just keep up this momentum I could be at my goal in no time. I’m being realistic though, 13 lbs in 3 wks is pretty damn good. So I’m not going to expect that to be a regular occurrence every 25 days, but it would definitely be nice.

Now I know people say, don’t focus on the number but how things fit; for me personally, and I must stress that…I have an ‘ULTIMATE’ goal in my head and a ‘SHORT-TERM’ goal as well. And I know health wise I WANT to get my self to a particular bracket of weight. Not quite ready to share the intimate #’s w/ everyone just yet…but I’ll share my emotional journey, workouts, and meals with you all along the way.

Enjoy,

w/Ambition – Star Padilla